Countrygirl1993, 31

Cowboy come take me away My name is Lauren, im 18, a senior in high school. I work part time as a waitress. I also have 9 horses, and I ride every chance I get. Im shy and conservative, that is untill I get to know a person. Then I can be loud, and im the light of the party, always making people laugh. I even laugh at my self if noone else does. Most people tend to think im rude and intmidating, which im the nicest person ever (always the one getting hurt) I give people way to many chances and I even get used. I can honestly say i've never been in love.Thats because I push people away before I let them hurt me, I think everyone is gonna hurt me so I push people away I shouldn't I need someone to push back and tell me Im not leaving and fight for it. I also think 99.9% of people are lying to me, only because i've always been lied to by close friends and guys. Also noone knows me as well as they think they do, my best friend is only 80% there, and I keep things about myself hidden and rarely talk about myself.Im not a bragger at all. I also dress preppy and country but because I want to look good.